Healing Girl
I hope you get that healing, girl
From all those things - none apologized for.
For all the looks, the words, the pauses
For doubt, and judgement, and not belonging
Don’t just sit there on that tree stump
With hearts carved into flesh
Did the boy love the tree, and did she love he?
In end both left for dead
You corner yourself in that university bedroom
Praying to be unchained from that sleep
Drove yourself straight into oblivion
To those sunny cali streets
Or at 8 or 11 when you saw too much
At 17 when you wouldn’t give more
You crashed and burned by 21
Playing games and keeping scores
So you chased a boy, with sparkly eyes
For some healing due southwest
On that sharp cold day when he passed away
Promised yourself you’d heal the rest
But you wouldn’t walk through it - couldn’t sit in it
The air was just too thin
For breathing, or being, or even believing
In buddha or jesus or a multitude of sins
I hope you get that healing, girl
From all those things - none apologized for.
For all the lies, and tries, and scouring eyes
No lambs blood outside your door
But you can’t just hope for healing, Red
God damnit you know that’s truth
You’re no shy little girl, with her back to the world
You’re only bound by your own tight noose
Stand up! look up!, look fierce! and look brave!
You’re no lamb lost, scared and silent
Or perhaps you are, but you know for sure
You’re protected by a Lion.
I see you want that healing, girl
Fiery hair and eyes and spirit
Indiana’s leap of faith, or saved by grace
Doesn’t matter -- walk right through it
No more hoping, wishing, begging
No more could have should have been
Your on your feet, forgiving trees
And initials carved back when
I’d hoped you’d get that healing, girl
But even more i’d hoped you’d find
This courage to flourish, no better yet nourish
Every cell he called “mine”
I see you’re chasing healing girl,
I see you will not stop
Breathing, believing, and achieving
Every path you set to cross.
11/26/19
